(rambling)
My focus is gone.
Im trying to finish a paper that is due by tonight but it isn't making much sense to me. I need to catch up on chores but I get overwhelmed whenever I begin. My brain is completely fogged.
I can't eat so Ive lost 6 lbs in the past week...which isnt all bad...
Caffeine isnt working, supplements arent working...Im taking fish oil, COQ10, B vitamins and cal/mag before bed...and nothing is happening. I picked up some 5-HTP but am not sure how I will react to it...so I havent taken it.
It has only been 2 weeks since my mom died (as of tomorrow) and I cant expect to function fully....but I need to function better...life is still going on and I need to work within it.
All I want to do is lie in the sun and soak it up and feel warm. For a few hundred dollars I could fly alone to some inclusive resort in the Caribbean for a couple of days....but not sure if my husband would be too gung ho about that
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~hugs~ Do give yourself a break. If you don't go through the process you won't ever be at 100%. Believe me, I short-circuited my initial grief for my mom in the name of "being functional" and handicapped myself immensely. It's been 15 years for me and I'm finally able to say that I've grieved her truly and can move along. The Church gives us so many days and years for grief for a reason. Don't ignore the need. It's real.
I agree... give yourself as much time as you need. A trip to someplace warm sounds like a good idea to me... can I come too? :)
Ok Erin...how about a whirlwind trip to Vegas...leave, stay one day, come home. That is enough time to lay in the sun and get warm, right? :-D
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